Prayers

 On Sunday, my friend Kylie gave a talk on having faith through trials.  She emotionally shared 2 moments in her life when she especially had to lean on our Heavenly Father, and live on faith and prayer.  I "stupidly" made the comment to Johnny later that evening that I was so thankful that I've never had a moment in life where I felt so vulnerable and needy that I needed to lean solely on my faith and prayer.  I told him I hoped I never had to have a trial that made me feel like that.

Fast forward to today, only two days later, and I felt overwhelmed.  School just started yesterday, it was a long day, also drove somewhere looking to test drive a car, and ended up buying a different car here in Rexburg.  Niko has been "tough" in his dating scene and personality right now and it's honestly just draining.  I also have my new dress rental business that I really really want to work out and be successful.  Homecoming is coming up and so I'm really crossing my fingers people will come to my open house and love the idea.  

I quickly realized that I was foolish saying I haven't had a moment where I needed to rely on prayer and faith.  We need those things constantly, on a daily basis.  Just to get through all the small things, the things that are important to us.  In the middle of the day, I decided to kneel down in prayer.  I just prayed and prayed and poured out my feelings.  I mentioned so many things, like hoping my business would get up and going without me spending much more money, that I could slow down and feel peace, among many other things.

While I was still kneeling, my Fitbit went off with a text from my friend Hattie.  She asked me if I needed to borrow any clothing racks for the open house.  I had posted several days ago on the buy nothing Facebook page asking for clothing racks to borrow.  I have 1 rack, but it's definitely not enough for 50 dresses!  She mentioned having several I could use.  I asked her if she had seen that post I had put up asking, and she said she's not even part of that fb group.  Heavenly Father works through those around us, and I think he wanted me to know that my prayer was heard, he's listening and that I'm important.  

Immediately after the prayer, Navy and I went on a scooter ride/walk around the block.  She collected all the dandelions she could find and made several stops to collect them.  She stopped to laugh at a Pokemon bandaid stuck on someone's driveway, she admired the new lamp posts on the street near ours.  We cuddled the two baby kitty stuffies she brought.  Maybe if this had been a different moment or day I might've been frustrated with how long it took us to simply get around the block, but after that prayer, I took it as my reminder to see things more simply and slowly.  

I still have so many things that need to get done and still don't have all my questions answered.  BUT, I am feeling peace in this moment and want to make sure I never forget that we always need Heavenly Father in our lives and that our prayers are heard.