A few minutes before church started,Niko was asked by Bro Jones to give a closing prayer for Sacrament meeting. He didn’t want to be put on the spot and so he politely declined. Bro Jones went and asked Kai, Kai had no idea Niko has just been asked and willingly said yes. After he passed the sacrament Kai started panicking, he was worried he’d say something wrong, wanted to write it out and anxiety was getting to him. He had to excuse himself during the talks, and when I followed him out a few min later suspecting he wasn’t just going to the bathroom he had a little breakdown and expressed how stressed out and worried he was. I told him not to worry, to keep it simple and we talked about why we even pray and that no one was going to care what he said. He came back in to sacrament meeting, sat down and seemed to calm down with a few tears here and there. Before the closing song I told him if he wanted me to say the prayer I’d do it for him. He kept being brave and insisting he could do it-all while tears were running down his face. During the closing song he lost it and excused himself with tears down his face. Niko saw how much it was effecting Kai and once he saw Kai step out, volunteered and said I’ll go up there and say it. It felt like such a spiritual moment and I was so proud of both my boys. So proud of Kai that he kept trying to push through and do something hard for him. He really wanted to do it, but a part of him that he couldn’t control, anxiety, was taking over. He kept pushing through until he just felt he couldn’t do it, even though he’d been so willing. I was proud of Niko because he knew to step in and help his brother out even though it was something he didn’t want to do either. Helping his brother out was more important than his lack of desire to go up there. I also felt like it was the perfect example of Christ in our lives. We try and try and try and sometimes we fall short. Then, after we’ve done all we can do Christ makes up the difference.
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