The Mini Van Sacrifice

A lot of women say it.  "I will never drive a mini van!"  But, I am the one who meant it.  I mean, I was the girl who drove the Jeep Wrangler and cried when "jeep" and I had to split.  What is with relationships with vehicles?!  I am not really sure but "jeep" and I had a strong relationship :)

Anyways, with the new addition on the way our car doesn't cut it.  I tried to shove three car seats in the back seat and it just can't happen.  So the hunt for the new vehicle has begun.  I definitely have love/hate feelings with the process.  It's fun knowing we will have something new (well new used) to drive, however I cannot wrap my little finger around the fact that the most practical thing to get would be a mini van.  I test drove this white dodge caravan and it was nice.  I was in denial when I told the salesman "this is ACTUALLY a great van."  Piling kids in would be a piece of cake, the space was plentiful, and the fuel economy rocked.  But come on, it's a mini van! Gross.  Kudos to families who have them, I can see why every family would want one!  BUT I AM ERINNE!

Now, I tried to explain this to Johnny, and I think he tried to understand because I was super passionate about it.  He didn't get what "being Erinne" had to do with anything.  I tried to explain sacrifices, which must sound so silly but it was how I felt!  Being a mom is wonderful.  It is amazing and those little boys I have make my heart so happy.  However, sacrifices galore have been made to be a mother like my desire to live in Hawaii or San Diego, to study Oceanography, to pursue lots and lots of schooling, and things like oh I don't know....my sleep, my body ( c section scar, stretch marks and that pooch that'll never go away) and my time.  I know I know whine-whine-whine-blah-blah-blah.  It's a sacrifice that is totally worth it!  Those boys are totally worth it!

The mini van idea pushed it though.  I sacrificed so much that as I test drove that minivan all I felt was this desire to be driving a truck or jeep.  I felt like I was entitled to not sacrifice one thing in my life, isn't that so silly?! I am the girl who drives the jeep.  I felt so guilty for feeling like that but could not settle on the idea of the "mom vehicle".

This is probably the most pointless post to read, and I'll laugh at it....eventually, but for now no decisions have been made on what the new vehicle will be.  It might be a van or maybe we will find a decent suv?  Who knows, but for now this girl is working on being less selfish and remembering that family is what our life and CAR is all about :)